Thursday, January 24, 2008

Oh, my!

I knew it had been way too long since I'd posted anything, but I just looked to see what was under today's post... I didn't realize it had been that long.

I should give the update on my first ever NaNoWriMo... I did it! I'd basically given up, and on Monday of the last week of November I had 32,000 words to go. Here's how it went:

Monday: almost 6K

Tuesday: about 7K

Wednesday: about 7K

Thursday: about 7K

Friday: a little over 5K

I was exhausted at the end of it. I told my husband, "I'm tired; my soul is empty; and I have no more words."

Identity Crisis?

I have to confess that I've always regarded agonizing over one's identity as a kind of unnecessary and narcissistic navel gazing. Now, however, the decision to have my daughter start 9th grade instead of 8th next year means that both kids will be in high school.

So, having been first a SAHM (stay at home mom) and then a homeschooling mom for the last 15 years or so, what will I be in five years? Or I could even ask (here comes the narcissistic navel gazing) who will I be in five years?

Fortunately, there is an easy answer to the second question, and it takes care of the first question, too. In five years, I will be what I was not just five years ago, but even twenty five years ago: a Christ-follower. I find that comforting because I know that the journey of motherhood has changed me in many ways, so it is clear that there's no going backwards. Going forwards is a question mark. I'd love for my writing to succeed, but I don't have to get my identity from that.

I was, I am, and I always will be... a Christ-follower. Everything else will fall into place around that.